Eating and drinking are an important part of life, not just because they are necessary but also because they are enjoyable social activities. For people living with MND, eating may become more difficult for several reasons. Firstly, with a weak arm or hand it may be hard to use cutlery or lift things to the mouth. Secondly, when MND weakens the muscles around the throat, mouth and tongue, this can cause difficulties in chewing and swallowing. Sometimes people choke on their food or drink. Some also experience excess saliva, which can add to the problem.
People talked about their experiences of eating, and shared some practical tips. These included'
- using special cutlery and arm rests to support the arms
- raising the plate by placing it on a box or a few books
- drinking through a straw, including a 'Pat Saunders' valve straw which stops the liquid going back down (however, using straws may risk aspiration if someone has swallowing difficulties, where drink may ‘go down the wrong way’ into the airways)
- picking high calorie and high fat foods
- trying out different textures and types of food
- eating little and often, and not trying to eat a main meal in the evening when tired
- trying cold drinks and foods such as ice cream.
Some people had a feeding tube inserted into the stomach through the abdomen, known as a gastrostomy. There are three different types of gastrostomy that might be used. You can read more about their experiences in 'PEGs, RIGs, PIGs and ventilation'. Some people said their appetite was unchanged, while others said they lost interest in food.
She lost weight and was advised to eat high calorie, high fat foods and fortified drinks. A big...
She lost weight and was advised to eat high calorie, high fat foods and fortified drinks. A big...
Age at interview: 58
Sex: Female
Age at diagnosis: 55
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Well, as far as food is concerned, they were concerned about me losing weight at the hospital, because my weight went down from 9 stone to about 8 stone and it seemed to have a downward pattern on the graph. So they arranged for me to see a dietician, who came out to the house. And she went through everything we were supposed to be eating. Told me to eat lots of butter and roast vegetables in oil and eat as much fat and carbohydrates as possible, which is the opposite message from what you're getting everywhere else. And she also recommended some Fortijuice sort of things, which are quite pleasant actually. It's a juice-flavoured drink, which I find quite nice. I did have a go at another one, which was a sort of milky drink, and it was quite foul. So I wouldn't recommend that. But the juices aren't too bad and I've been having those. And over the summer I've been eating a lot of strawberries and cream and things like that. And I have put some weight on.
They haven't actually weighed me at the hospital recently because they can't get me on to the weighing chair, because they didn't have a hoist. But I have found that I've put a bit of weight on round my bum, which is not what I would like really, but it makes sitting a lot more comfortable. And when I got very thin I was noticing that sitting on any kind of hard seat was getting uncomfortable. And I didn't want to get bedsores or pressure sores or whatever they're called. So I'm quite pleased I've got a bit of weight round my bottom now. But I don't really want to put too much more on because my husband still lifts me to transfer. He can't be bothered to wait while I transfer on a board. He'd much prefer to get things over quickly and lift. And I don't want to get any heavier, or he'll get a bad back and then we shall both be in real trouble. So I have changed my diet to a certain extent.
I do try to keep plenty of fruit and vegetables going in, because I don't want to get constipated. And I have some fibre stuff which I have mixed in with my Ovaltine every night. So I do have to sort of work things like that. Most of the time I don't feel hungry, and looking at a great big plate of dinner is not very exciting. It's quite daunting in a way, and I just have to keep on poking it in. You just get your spoon and you listen to something on the radio and just keep doling it into your mouth and swallowing it and hoping that you're doing the right thing. If I had to decide when I was full, I'd decide I was full after three mouthfuls. That's about as soon as I start to think, 'Oh, I don't want any more.' So you just have to keep on working at it really, that's the thing. I found tiramisu was very easy. That slips down very nicely. So when Sainsbury's had a special offer on tiramisu in the summer we got large amounts of it. And I did find that was one thing that slipped down easily, and was nice. But generally, because things don't taste very nice, especially savoury things, you just don't feel inclined to go on eating them at all. I used to love smoked mackerel, but it doesn't taste like smoked mackerel any more, it just tastes like something really, really salty and it just doesn't have the roundness of the flavour. So things just go off the menu, really.
Do you go out to eat at any time?
No, because it's difficult to eat in public. I will occasionally go and eat something that I can eat with my fingers or perhaps something that I can spoon up. But I don't take my arm support when I go out, so it's got to be something I can manage fairly easily without the arm support. And as time goes on I feel less and less inclined to go and eat in public, because I don't want to have people watching me and wondering what I'm up to. So I think that's something I would avoid in the future
She still enjoys her food and eating out, even though she thought she'd be embarrassed about...
She still enjoys her food and eating out, even though she thought she'd be embarrassed about...
Age at interview: 34
Sex: Female
Age at diagnosis: 31
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I think one thing that, another thing that I found interesting, looking back on it now, is my approach to eating. And since my arms have become weak and I can no longer feed myself - I can't get a, a fork to my mouth - I thought, I remember saying to myself, and to my family six months ago, 'Come on, let's go out to a restaurant. You know, I want to, you know, enjoy it while I still can, because I'm not going to be able to feed myself soon. And then I'll feel much more self-conscious about eating out, and I won't want to.' It appears that that hasn't been the case [laughs] and that the food has taken over. And even though I can't feed myself, I'm still quite happy to go out to restaurants. It doesn't, and it doesn't bother me. Whereas I thought it would before, and I thought that that was something that I was going to have to opt out of. And that's just not the case. And so sometimes things aren't always as bad as you expect them to be, and other desires take over. [brief mobile phone interference] So I enjoy food too much to be worried about what other people are thinking or whether they're looking at me. It doesn't occur to me now. But that was something that I had to sort of just get over. Yeah, so that was, that's interesting, sort of looking back on that. And the same with being in a wheelchair - I know that my, my, my husband notices people looking at me more than I do. I'm able to kind of, well, look at, look in windows and I'm too busy shopping to be looking at other people. But my husband feels that. That doesn't stop him wanting to do anything, but - and sometimes it makes him angry - but he's kind of got past that as well. And it's just human curiosity. So I tend not to, I guess subconsciously I'm just not looking at other people, or their faces. Because it doesn't help me.
She has several tips to help with eating and swallowing. [Voice software interview].
She has several tips to help with eating and swallowing. [Voice software interview].
Age at interview: 63
Sex: Female
Age at diagnosis: 62
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Types of food and drink
Prior to gastrostomy, my local speech therapist only offered basic advice such as sipping iced water prior to having a meal. Swallowing liquids involves a double swallow, with the tongue in the roof of the mouth. Thickened juices rather like an unset jelly were provided by the GP, and I was not sorry to dispense with those. I was no longer able to kiss, blow, whistle or suck through a straw.
Currently all my meals are still by mouth. I am choosy of course. Boneless fish is very easy to eat, cauliflower cheese, thick homemade soups, jacket potatoes with tuna mayo, casseroles with finely cut meat. Now I take all thin liquids by the tube [PEG], along with ground up pills. I aim to have two pints of water daily. Liquids by mouth are bought vegetable juices, milkshakes and an occasional coffee or tea with sugar. I had instructions from the dietician to eat as much fattening foods as I like, full cream milk, ice cream, etc. To supplement my meals I also now take 200ml a day of a balanced nutritious drink through the tube. I prefer not to eat out, since it is embarrassing if I choke and I am now a messy eater.
Exercises to help strengthen weak mouth muscles (advice from a Speech & Language Consultant at a major MND Clinic)
- Blow cheeks out and hold for a few seconds. But I can’t do this one now without holding a towel to my nose and mouth to prevent the air escaping.
- This technique is handy for bowel movements!
- Jaw stretch. Open wide and shut jaw, repeat 10 to 20 times a day.
- Purse lips and then wide grin, repeat often (I can’t do this one either now)
- Cheek stretch. Put thumb inside mouth and stretch the cheek while pressing thumb against other fingers on the outside of cheek and pulling it forwards. I don’t like doing this one, so I neglect it but it does improve the stretchability of the cheeks.
- Be vigilant with teeth cleaning (Dentist’s advice)
- Carers, friends and family should learn the ‘assisted cough’ and mucus shifting routine
- Take in plenty of water
Posture and Position for Eating - to help chew food
- Sit in soft chair with head and neck supported on pillow. Adjust to a comfortable position to make swallowing easier
- Put finger in mouth to move food around and assist chewing. Believe me, you will get used to doing this. Best not when dining out!
- Request hydrotherapy from the local hospital. It is very helpful to strengthen muscles and improve diaphragm breathing.
- To keep sinus passages clear at night, sniff salt water or by dropper. This works just as well as Sudafed but not damaging long term. (Advice from the Hospice). Or Vaseline on a cotton-bud helps the dry nose.
- Use Glandsosane spray to moisten mouth as needed at night. Not the answer to the problem but does help. Actually I find dipping fingers in water and wiping them over tongue. I have used foam swabs but the texture is off-putting.
Drinking
- Take small sip & swallow twice or more with tongue in roof of mouth
- Or try holding cup to bottom lip and take lots of small sips without putting cup down. (This sometimes seem to work for me).
- Tomato or V8 vegetable juice to assist with saliva
Equipment to help
- Obtain a sucking machine for clearing saliva or food particles (community Physiotherapist provided mine free of charge as it’s on loan).
- Electric toothbrush
- Hand held electric mixer for reducing food to easy consistency. I find it is wonderful for mashing up food for smoothies
The speech therapist showed her a useful tip for swallowing tablets.
The speech therapist showed her a useful tip for swallowing tablets.
Age at interview: 66
Sex: Female
Age at diagnosis: 65
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You get a speech therapist and a dietician, which I haven't needed too much yet. But they can suggest things to you. Like the speech therapist, she said, 'When you take a tablet, put the tablet and the water in your mouth, then put your chin down and swallow.' And it's so much easier, because you block off your windpipe when you put your chin down. And I didn't know that. So, you know, that would help loads of people, not just MND people, wouldn't it, because it's awkward to take tablets. And so the help is wonderful.
His wife is sometimes sad that she can't eat what everyone else is eating. He feels guilty that...
His wife is sometimes sad that she can't eat what everyone else is eating. He feels guilty that...
Age at interview: 73
Sex: Male
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Because my wife suddenly breaks down and says, 'Oh.' I mean for instance, my daughter and I had a curry. And it sounds stupid this, doesn't it? I had a curry, and very enjoyable, obviously. Suddenly my wife, in the kitchen, suddenly broke down in tears, and I had to go out and find out what was wrong. And after quite a long time it took to find out that she just said, 'I wish I could partake of the curry.' So that makes me feel pretty awful to think that I can enjoy a curry and my daughter can enjoy a curry, which is just normal, and my wife is not able to. So I suggested to her that she should try some of the liquids from the curry and everything. She tried, but then she informed me that it was a bit too hot, and the Madras curry or something was too hot and it was burning her throat and that. So again we tried to get round the problem a little bit, but it doesn't work. So, you know, what can you do? How do you approach it?
Most people valued the advice of occupational therapists, dietitians and speech therapists in getting round eating and swallowing difficulties. However, some people did not like the thickened drinks suggested - one woman said they made her husband feel like coughing and choking, and others said they were just not very appetising. Some people also said they had problems during hospital stays when staff did not know much about MND and gave inappropriate foods, for example things that were too hard or crumbly, or low fat products.
Difficulties in swallowing sometimes led to a choking fit. This is usually partial choking causing a coughing fit, rather than a blockage, and just takes a little time to clear. Nevertheless, people who had experience of this said it felt frightening, and it can be for carers or others nearby at the time. One woman described what choking fits were like for her and how she has learnt to overcome them. She wanted to reassure others living with MND who are worried about choking. With appropriate symptom control and palliative care, choking is unlikely to be a cause of death.
The first time she choked she was terrified. Now she manages it by staying calm. Choking is unlikely to be a cause of death with MND.
The first time she choked she was terrified. Now she manages it by staying calm. Choking is unlikely to be a cause of death with MND.
Age at interview: 45
Sex: Female
Age at diagnosis: 37
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I have difficulty swallowing and I've had quite a few choking attacks, which is one of the reasons for the PEG. On two occasions the children have had to dial 999 and get paramedics out, but most of the time I'm more or less in control. But it's quite scary, because the noise - it's hard to explain the noise that you make, because it isn't like before I had MND, if you got something went down the wrong way and you coughed, it's nothing like that. It's like there's no air, and it's a horrible - and the people around me tend to freak and get scared more than I am. In the early days I was. The first one I had, I was absolutely terrified. And it got worse, because I was more concerned that the children, who were in bed at the time, would hear this horrible noise and come down and panic, but thankfully they didn't. But about three months ago I was at a support group for MND, and one of the ladies there choked, and that was the first time I'd ever heard someone else with MND choke, and it was horrible. And I suddenly realised why everybody around me panics, because I panicked when this lady - and it's, but it took that for me to realise that - and I now know why everybody runs around and doesn't know what to do.
That first - [And there isn't] Sorry. That first time, did it resolve itself?
Eventually.
OK.
And once, it's kind of, if I stay calm and try and control my breathing and lean forward, that usually helps. But in the early days I didn't know that. So my instinct was to gasp to try and get air, which actually made the choking worse than calming down. And I remember walking around hanging on to things and trying to, thinking, 'If I keep moving, air will get in.' And I actually found out that that was the, one of the worst things you can do. But it's the, instinct kicks in, and you just do what you think.
And when you've had the ambulance out, by the time they get here has it resolved, or was it?
Fortunately the first time, which was really, really scary, it was just - well, it was this time last year. My son, I was eating and suddenly was choking. It was the first time I'd had an attack where I couldn't get any air. And I was aware that - I had a warden, so [daughter] rang the warden, who rang the ambulance, who rang back. And the next thing I knew, I apparently passed out, and my son pulled me by the legs on to the floor and put me in the recovery position. And once that was done I got air and started to breathe. But while all that was going on, I was kind of aware that my daughter was on the phone, and I was thinking, 'I'm choking here. Who are you talking to?' kind of [laughs], not realising that she was on the phone and it was the paramedics calming her down, and obviously to relay to my son what to do. But I was totally oblivious to all that. And I remember lying on the floor, getting my breath, thinking, 'Nobody knows where the Christmas presents are. They, I've bought them but nobody knows where I've hidden them.' And then the other part of me was going, 'Don't be stupid. Nobody chokes to death with MND. So why should you be the first one? I'm not going to.' But that was pretty, very, very frightening.
It is something that a lot of people are afraid is going to happen to them'
It is, yes.
'isn't it, choking to death? I mean, what would you say to people from your experience?
Oh, the choking attacks are very, very scary, but it's very unlikely that that will be the cause of death. It’s more than likely respiratory failure. It’s, I don’t think anybody has actually choked to death with MND. But people think that that, that is how you’re going to die. But they are pretty scary. And the second time was a bacon sandwich [laughs], when my carer was here. And she, my son told her to put us on the floor and he rang. And it seems that once I’m in the recovery position I’m fine. But I remember asking what was the best thing to do. So that if it happened outside, could somebody just put me in the recovery position? But apparently that might not work, depending on where the food’s lodged. Touch wood [touching head], it’s worked so far. It’s a standard joke now. I always say to everybody, “Well, if I choke, shove us on the floor.” [laughs] But.
Is it always food or is it sometimes just--?
It can be liquid. Anything. And it can also be if you’ve got a cold. When I have had a cold, when I get up in the morning and it’s chesty or, then I can choke just on that. It can, there isn’t really any rhyme or reason. I mean, I avoid the obvious like biscuits and cake and peanuts, but in general it can be a mouthful of tea. The first time I choked it was a, it was a mouthful of water. So you just don’t know what’s going to happen.
Footnote: Choking is feared by some people, but with good symptom control and palliative care is extremely rare and very unlikely to be a cause of death.
The MND Association
website provides information sheet 7A: Swallowing difficulties, which includes guidance about choking.
Some people talked about their experiences of breathing problems when the muscles used in breathing started to become weaker. They described feeling out of breath and tired, especially if it was affecting their sleep. Some people were using non-invasive assisted ventilation, a small machine which supports the person's own breathing by providing extra air through a face mask or nasal tubes. To read more about their experiences, see 'Feeding Tubes (PEGs, RIGs, PIGs) and ventilation'.
Other people could manage their breathing by using exercises, posture and relaxation techniques. Some found aromatherapy helpful. A few said they had temporary breathing problems, perhaps when they had been ill or over-tired, but then things had improved again. Regular monitoring of the condition is likely to include breathing ('respiratory') function tests. Some people also had such tests before a PEG operation or before air travel to check they'd be all right.
In the night her nose gets blocked and she can't swallow. She and her carers have found sleeping...
In the night her nose gets blocked and she can't swallow. She and her carers have found sleeping...
Age at interview: 74
Sex: Female
Age at diagnosis: 72
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Maryse' So gradually I've not been able to sleep in bed because my nose for some reason gets blocked. My, the mucus membrane of my mouth dries up and normally one can swallow. But it's too difficult to swallow. And it's not so much the swallowing but the back of nasopharynx is also inactive.
Your thyroid?
Daughter' Nasopharynx.
Right. Is there anything that you do to help that? Anything that you can do?
Maryse' Yes, it will be later' There might be some help with sucking the saliva. So because of that, it's, it is very frightening not to be able to breathe in the night. In a, in the recliner, what is it called?
Daughter' The recliner chair. We tried several, didn't we, before we got one that we found was okay.
And that helps with your throat, with the swallowing?
Maryse' The carers and I have gradually learnt how to position me. It's only in the last week that it is getting better. In the last week, example, I go to bed at 11.30. I need care between 2 and 3 and last night I slept from 3 until half past eight.
Daughter' Lie in.
Maryse' I didn't get up. I think the [inaudible] makes me a bit drowsy. So what are the changes? I was taken to lunch on Wednesday and it was tender fillet of steak, really perfect and my friend cut it for me. And I realized that the chewing is fine, the swallowing is fine in terms of food but my tongue has, is going or partly. It's not moving as it should.
He advises people to 'make MND live with you, not the other way round'. He describes simple...
He advises people to 'make MND live with you, not the other way round'. He describes simple...
Age at interview: 62
Sex: Male
Age at diagnosis: 53
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When you're given bad news, it doesn't mean your life has ended. It's the beginning of a new adventure. Make motor neurone disease live with you, and not the other way round. I don't give in to it. If I feel my hands or any of my limbs stiffening or cramping up, you see people all paralysed and their hands, what am I going to do it that way, I'll do it that way. I force my body to move again and give my hands simple exercises. I had to go on to a Nippy for my breathing overnight some time ago.
I didn't realise how bad my lung functions had gone until I went on to it. I do do simple breathing exercises a couple of times a day. Nothing too strenuous. I generally lean forward on to a table or if I'm in my wheelchair, on the arms in that position and I do up to a maximum of ten deep inhalations each session. But don't overdo any exercise because it makes you tired and when you're tired you feel worse. Keep the exercises simple but regular.
He tries to keep active. Singing in music therapy helps his breathing. He had breathing problems...
He tries to keep active. Singing in music therapy helps his breathing. He had breathing problems...
Age at interview: 55
Sex: Male
Age at diagnosis: 51
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At the beginning I was less knowledgeable, but as I was going into this condition and knowing better what I would be needing, of course they always told me, 'If you see anything that you would need, just let us know.' So at the beginning they were, pre-empting, but they always let, left the door open to me to suggest. And that's, that's why in this flat you don't see too many equipments. It's not heavily equipped with, with aids etc. I just have what I need, actually, because I said right at the beginning that I want to continue to fight. I want to continue to use my body as much as I can. And if I reach a limit where I can't use it, okay, I will make an adaptation. But until that point, I will push it. And that's the case with my breathing. I don't want to have any assistance with that. I still continue to use my lungs. And actually I go for musical therapy twice, twice a month. And in musical therapy we can play music with xylophones with my hands. It's an exercise which is seemingly done without thinking. And the other side, I sing at the same time, and singing helps my breathing and helps my lungs working in a, in a seemingly fashion as well.
Have you had breathing problems, apart from the time when you were admitted to hospital?
It, at the hospital it was because of that problem, of the ulcers.
Yeah.
But afterwards, at the point of time, it was about six months ago, seven months ago, I started to have, let's say, a diet which was not enough and I wasn't sleeping enough etc. I got tired. And it was affecting my, my breathing capability. And then at that point - and now I'm feeling much better because I've changed this situation. And my GP helped me by medication as well. And now I'm really much better and the breathing is, is working fine.
What medication did you have for that?
When, when - the medication was mainly because I had some bowels problem, because at that time not having a proper diet I started to have really problems and diarrhoea etc. And so I went two weeks at the hospital at the end, at this Christmas, and because I was anaemic. And at that time then they started to give me some steroids etc. And the steroids make a big difference. And I'm now, I've tapered it down now, I'm getting it down, out of it. But it seems that I have recovered, recovered quite well. All the blood tests now are showing quite a good recovery and good thing, which has taught me a lesson. Because it's always the same problem, it's one thing bringing the other one. At work I have nobody to help me to go to the loo. And then because I'm not able to transfer from this, the other chair I have to the, to the toilet - which there I have a, a riser as well which has been bought by my company - then I tend to say, 'Okay' to refrain myself going there, and of course refrain myself to keep my dignity. I don't eat at noon, I don't drink. And so I start to get a problem. So from one situation I've brought another problem. And this is where I taught my, learned my lesson, because I would cope with MND, but having a problem linked with all the bowel etc, I don't like it. It's, it's worse. So I said, 'I can avoid that' so.
Her lung capacity is reduced but her breathing is still good. Occasionally she feels a bit out of...
Her lung capacity is reduced but her breathing is still good. Occasionally she feels a bit out of...
Age at interview: 34
Sex: Female
Age at diagnosis: 31
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It's not affecting my swallowing and my eating and drinking, fortunately. My, I did have a lung capacity test done about three or four months ago - yeah, about four months ago, actually, before I flew, to ascertain that I was going to be okay to fly. And they measured my lung capacity at 40 per cent. Although my oximetry is fine, so the lungs are working fine and my, my blood is fully oxygenated, my capacity is less. So I can't cough or choke. I'm quite pathetic. Shouting, I can't really do. And I do find that when I'm talking I will sometimes have to pause and, and sort of take breaths within a sentence that I wouldn't normally have to. I don't really get breathless, though. I get the occasional day, maybe if I'm a bit stressed or whether, if it's particularly humid or close, then I might struggle to feel like I'm not getting a full lungful. And something that I've found that helps me quite a lot with that is relaxation and belly-breathing. And also aromatherapy oils, like frankincense and lavender. Just inhaling on those is really, it feels like it opens up my lungs and it stops me panicking about feeling like I can't get enough breath. And so also now that I've had that a few times and I know what causes it, I'm able to relax out of it much more quickly. Mm.
Several people said they recognised that anxiety or panic about breathing could contribute to the problem. Some who did not normally have breathing difficulties said they started to imagine they did. One woman was told she had been hyperventilating without realising it.
Sometimes he worries he has problems breathing or swallowing, but thinks it's really his...
Sometimes he worries he has problems breathing or swallowing, but thinks it's really his...
Age at interview: 56
Sex: Male
Age at diagnosis: 53
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I do have a nebuliser for my phlegm, which may be due to a sinus problem, but for whatever reason I have it I frequently don't have enough strength to remove it through coughing. Naturally the imagination runs riot with additional problems like this. There have been occasions when I've imagined that I'm short of breath or that I've difficulty swallowing because I've got Motor Neurone Disease, and things like that. Up to now, thankfully, such apparent symptoms, except for my phlegm, have been mostly the products of my imagination. All this does affect the psyche, but on the whole I try and not think about it. I do not think much about the future, because if I did, I'd go mad. We have to take each day as it comes, because this time next year they might find a cure, or they might not. My condition might stay the same, or improve, or get worse. It's pointless to start wondering, 'What will happen this time over next year?'
She got into a 'vicious circle' of anxiety, hyperventilating and imagining she couldn't swallow....
She got into a 'vicious circle' of anxiety, hyperventilating and imagining she couldn't swallow....
Age at interview: 54
Sex: Female
Age at diagnosis: 52
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However, at that point in time I didn't know that the speed at which the disease starts is the speed at which it progresses. So it never speeds up. It might slow down or plateau, but it never speeds up. I only found that out about seven or eight months ago. So that again is another positive thing. But he said to me, 'You've got this flail leg' and so there were all sorts of questions about that. 'And basically your legs will just get weaker. And you may go for five, ten, fifteen years before it gets into your hands. And 15 per cent of people don't get it in their hands or their breathing or swallowing. But you just don't know if you're going to be one of those people.' So it's really a case of knowing that you've got the leg problem, and just acting as if you have a problem with your legs and not, not letting it affect you mentally. Because if you continually think about what might happen, then you just can't live a proper life, really. I did actually have a word with one of the other consultants. He said, 'Is there anything you want to ask?' And I said, 'Well, yes, I get this tingling in my hand, in my right hand.' I didn't really tend to get it in my left. 'And I'm worried about that being a progression.' And he said it was anxiety. And I said, 'Really?' He said, 'Yes. You're hyperventilating, although you wouldn't realise it.' And you only need to breathe I think it's ten more breaths a minute before you're hyperventilating and depositing calcium in the blood, which causes tingling in your fingers. And if you think you're doing it too much, breathe into a paper bag. But I managed to stop it.
Because I knew that he'd told me that, so I knew it wasn't a progression of the disease, so I stopped worrying. I had this sort of vicious circle where I was worrying, and getting it, and worrying and... In fact just one other thing, when I was diagnosed I started swallowing about [laughs] three or four hundred times a day. Because even though a sane person would know you don't suddenly get bulbar symptoms with motor neurone disease the next day after you're diagnosed, obviously it became an obsession, and I couldn't stop swallowing and I strained my throat. And my GP, with whom we're very friendly, had rung me up, and I told him. And he said, 'Well, you've got to stop doing it.' I said, 'I know, I know I've got to stop it. But it's really difficult to do it.' So I had to get over that as well and stop that.
How did you get over it?
I just kept telling myself not to be stupid. I mean, you've got to, you've got to be sensible. You, otherwise your whole life just falls apart. And, you know, people say to me, 'Oh, you're an inspiration, because you go to the gym, and you do that.' And I don't want to be an inspiration. Well, I suppose in a way I could be, because it would help other sufferers who, who, you know, need something to guide them. But I do it for myself, really, because it just keeps me normal. I just want to be as normal as I can. And I don't worry about the fact that people see me walking as if I'm drunk or, you know, sitting in my wheelchair. I, you just have to ignore that and, and just do things the way you always used to do them, as well as you can, based on your disability, really.
His daughter used to panic about breathing, especially when using the loo, but she could control...
His daughter used to panic about breathing, especially when using the loo, but she could control...
Age at interview: 62
Sex: Male
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And we were constantly looking for that typical motor neurone breathing difficulty and it wasn't there, except when she'd start thinking about it, and she'd have what we came to term a panic attack. And she started to in particular associate that with going to the loo, and so when she was sitting on the loo she started getting breathing difficulties, for no apparent reason. So we did what we could in terms of making her more comfortable when she was sitting on the loo. We had a commode obviously as well, and she preferred the commode, although it was more difficult for everybody else concerned. She preferred the commode and towards the end we were using the commode almost exclusively.
But it was on the loo that she was having these panic attacks, and she could calm down from them. She could have them on other occasions but again with concentrated breathing exercises she would come down from the panic. Now whether that was just the brain compensating for something that was happening anyway in her, I mean, I'm not a medical person so I don't know quite exactly how it works, but I know that there are some parts of the brain that control our involuntary muscular activities and there are some parts that help to control them if the involuntary systems don't seem to work.
Her husband uses a ventilator. She describes two frightening occasions when he briefly stopped...
Her husband uses a ventilator. She describes two frightening occasions when he briefly stopped...
Age at interview: 54
Sex: Female
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Well, he uses a Nippy. I don't know if you've heard of those. He was one of the first people to get them because he was on the research for them. And we both maintain that without the Nippy he would probably have died years ago anyway. Because it really is such a, an effort, an effort for him to breathe that the Nippy at night is excellent. And the alarm on the Nippy went off. The new ones don't have this alarm, but the old ones do. Which means that the, whoever's wearing the mask has stopped breathing or the electricity has cut off, one or the other. I immediately woke up, knew that the electricity was still on, dived round to his side of the bed. And it was horrible. I got the mask off him, turned the machine off, got rid of the noise and I just looked at him and he wasn't there. It was, he just wasn't there. Well, I shook him and I shouted at him and I, finally he came round. And he was very shocked about it as well. We both found it very difficult to talk about because it's, it was very hard for him to realise that it was so easy to go. And he admitted later on to one of his specialists that he sees now that he, he could have just let it happen. But as I said he's very stubborn. He wasn't going to have that happen at all. And, and he came round. Not pleasant, really not pleasant. But you spend the next few nights not sleeping, thinking it's going to happen again. And there's nothing you can do about that.
One of the times he did it was in the car, which was horrible because I just had to take the car off the road and find somewhere to park until I could shake him back again. And he's more prone to do things like this when he's anxious, when he's upset because with MND your emotional state reflects on your physical state. Again something that he finds very hard. Being a leader of men as such, very much in charge of everything, to not be in charge of your emotions and them being in charge of your body is a very new sensation for him. He doesn't like that. He doesn't like being anxious. But he gets that way very much so.
The MND Association
website includes various resources about eating, swallowing and breathing, such as their Eating and drinking guide, sheets 7A to 7D on swallowing, tube feeding and speech, and 8A to 8E on breathing and ventilation.
The MND Association has also developed what is known as their 'Just in Case Kit'. This is a small box supplied to a named individual through their GP. It is used to store medication, prescribed by the GP, that can give immediate relief in the case of breathing difficulties, choking or related panic. It contains leaflets with useful advice and instructions for family carers and health professionals. Most people will never need to use the kit, but just having it readily available at home can help give reassurance and confidence. More about the 'Just in Case Kit' can be found on the MND Association's website.
The MND Association provides a 'Living with MND guide' and a range of downloadable information sheets tube feeding, breathing, ventilation and air travel. They have also produced a recipe collection of easy to swallow meals.
Last reviewed August 2017.
Last updated August 2017.
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