Interview 28
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Asserts that laughter helped him recover from his illness.
Asserts that laughter helped him recover from his illness.
Not people at work, er at that stage it was just friends and I have a very nice group of friends, all of whom delight in taking the piss and so as a result I remember in the hospital the cards I was getting. And one stands out to this very day, and I still have it and it was (laughs) and it was just simply entitled on the front, 'Sorry for the loss of your loved one' (laughs) and so you can see what sort of friends I had.
How did you feel when you got cards like that?
Oh I laughed, but that's me you see.
Did you genuinely laugh?
Absolutely, genuinely laughed.
So it didn't upset you when you say they took the piss?
Not at all, not at all, because that's the way that I cope really. I like to think I've got a pretty good sense of humour and it has seen me through many, many different situations. And this was certainly one that helped, I mean it really did. When I think of the absolute manic cards I had and people just didn't want to take it seriously. I think they were probably trying to jolly me along a bit in case I was going to dip into some sort of depression but I didn't. And whether it was me or a combination of me and my friends being you know up beat I really don't know but it worked.
So you felt the humour was actually helpful?
Definitely, absolutely definitely, I couldn't take it seriously. I mean in later days you know when I was in a work situation perhaps able to say something to a college when it was appropriate, I mean I wouldn't go around saying "Hello, I've had testicular cancer," but when it came up I would talk about it. And you could see them formulating a question in their minds and a lot of people don't know how to take it when you say "Oh yes I've dealt with cancer." And usually the first question was "Oh where did you have it?" and my glib answer was always "Brighton," (laughs) so, and that always broke the ice. So, and that I still use that line today I know. But it's, you see that's the humour coming through again and that most definitely has helped me and still helps me.
Oh that's really good.
Yeah I think so and I think it's important and I know, I don't want to trivialise and I don't want to take it into a different sphere and I know people deal with things on a different way. Some people might be absolutely horrified that I'm sitting here telling you that I laughed about it but I truly believe that that actually helped, so I need to tell you that I laughed about it.
Describes the tattoos that were put on his body before the radiotherapy started.
Describes the tattoos that were put on his body before the radiotherapy started.
Describes the unexpected sickness he suffered after his radiotherapy.
Describes the unexpected sickness he suffered after his radiotherapy.
And I had to ring the GP and I had to get somebody out to me because I was by now on the floor, because I was, number one I was emotionally drained, and number two I was physically drained because I was just throwing up so much. And I explained to the guy who came, and it wasn't my regular GP, but I explained to him what the, what had happened to me today and he said, "Well didn't they give you any tablets or didn't they explain?" And I said, "No, no they told me it would be fine." And he said "Well, you know that really wasn't on and they should've explained that because the radiotherapy cuts through some good tissue as well as bad if there is any bad there, and that predominantly it cuts across your stomach." And you know that can have a devastating effect, which nobody had told me about. So of course the next day I was like "Why didn't you tell me?" "Well the attitude that we have is that some people don't get affected so we don't want to scare people and so we just don't say anything the first day and then if somebody comes in the next day sick we can give them some tablets for it." Which I didn't think was really a particularly good way to handle it. So that was the first big trauma really.
Explains how his false testicle was implanted and says that he is very pleased with it.
Explains how his false testicle was implanted and says that he is very pleased with it.
I think I waited may be 3 months and I very soon had a bed and he came by and he explained what the procedure was. I asked could I choose the size, he said "No," I had great visions (laughs). He said, "No, no, no we have small, medium and large and we just match you," so that's what it was. And it was a silicone implant that they were going to put in and I asked him how they were going to achieve this. He said "Exactly in the same way that we took the other one out." So I thought okay fine and that's exactly what they did. And I was in hospital for no more than 2 days and came out happy again.
How sore was it and how quickly could you walk around and feel alright?
I was walking around the ward the same day that I had the testicle put back in er which was hugely gratifying because you think you know okay you've got a wound which is in your abdomen and that is slightly restrictive but really it didn't hurt an awful lot other than that healing wound there which let's face I'd been through once before they took it out so I knew what to expect. Er but no it didn't affect anything otherwise, I just took off and went.
And are you pleased that you had one replaced now?
Absolutely yes because I can flick it and it doesn't hurt (laughs) which to a man is very important. You've probably lost that completely but such is the pain on flicking a real one it's a great delight to sit in the bath and flick a silicone one and not flinch.
And do you think it matches the other one pretty well?
Absolutely yeah you can barely tell the difference either in size or density. It feels almost exactly the same.
Good.
The only thing that you can tell is different is that it's, at the base of it there's kind of a, not a clamp but it's where it's held in place because if it weren't tethered by some sort of lead I suppose it would float around and possibly find its way back up into the abdomen. So what they explained was this holds it in place. So that's the only thing that you can really tell is different but other than that it's perfectly fine.
Oh good.
Yeah very happy with it.
Urges men to seek help and to have the courage of their convictions if they suspect that something is wrong.
Urges men to seek help and to have the courage of their convictions if they suspect that something is wrong.
Yeah if there's a lump there it doesn't really matter what is causing that lump, it shouldn't be there and you need to get it sorted it out. Don't take no for an answer and have the courage of your convictions because you are more in tune with your body than you realise and you will instinctively know if you need to get something done about it. I would say that everything I've gone through subsequently, yes they found that it was testicular cancer, and they found that it was a seminoma which required radiotherapy and not a teratoma which required chemotherapy. Treatments have changed and the way that people are being treated these days is sometimes a lot more, a lot less intrusive than other treatments have been in the past so I would not be afraid of that at all. And I would say please, just go, check it out, and then have it seen to if it needs to be seen to because you do need to have it seen to because if you let it go the that's when it starts to get more dangerous.