Interview OV36
Age at interview: 61
Age at diagnosis: 54
Brief Outline: Ovarian cancer diagnosed in 1997 following abdominal pain, tiredness and bloating. Treated with bowel surgery then surgical removal of ovaries and womb, and chemotherapy. Recurrences treated with chemotherapy, accompanied by further bowel surgery.
Background: Retired headmistress, married, one grown up child.
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While waiting for blood test results had to go into hospital as an emergency with a blocked bowel.
While waiting for blood test results had to go into hospital as an emergency with a blocked bowel.
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So I went to the doctor and I went three times to the doctor in the space of about three weeks and didn't feel that I was really getting anywhere and, you know, it was 'oh well it's possibly a grumbling appendix' or 'well it's possibly pelvic inflammation'or... And eventually I have to say that my professional life was in [town] so I wasn't, although I lived here, my professional life was in [town] and eventually the doctor there sent me for a blood test and said 'go home to [county], and rest and we'll see what happens to the blood test, but just go and rest".
So I came home on the Thursday, and I was by then in quite a lot of pain and that was about the 25th January, and I went to bed when I came home and I didn't get up, and in the end my husband had the doctor come here to see me and I was taken in as an emergency with a blocked bowel.
Had two operations: first an emergency operation to unblock her bowel, then a hysterectomy.
Had two operations: first an emergency operation to unblock her bowel, then a hysterectomy.
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So I sort of got over one and then discovered that this was another possibility. So as far as he was concerned he didn't really make it seem as if this was a very serious thing but he wasn't an oncologist. So he gathered round him a gynaecologist, and very fortunately in my area we have an ovarian cancer specialist oncologist, and he recruited him as well so there were three of them on the case.
And the way the oncologist worked was that he preferred to have a full scale hysterectomy first before any chemo was tried. So within three weeks of the operation for the blocked bowel where I had a portion of the bowel taken away, I then went to have a hysterectomy.
Had five courses of four different chemotherapy drugs because her cancer kept returning.
Had five courses of four different chemotherapy drugs because her cancer kept returning.
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This is my fifth, yes.
And different drugs every time or have you alternated?
I had carboplatin, cisplatin, Taxol, and then last time I had Caelyx and I'm having that again this time. When I had it I understood again from the oncologist that you couldn't have more than a maximum of X number of mls of this drug, but whether again this is research that's changed things in a short time, because things do don't they. It's wonderful really how things improve. He's quite confident now that I will be able to have another six, obviously we'll monitor it as we go along, but another six doses of Caelyx.
And I didn't lose my hair with Caelyx, and I was treated at home on that occasion which was, I didn't know you could have chemotherapy at home, well that was quite interesting, and I think that was the drug that's caused me personally the fewest number of unpleasant side effects. Although I understand its, it has an effect on your heart and not everybody can take it because the risk to the heart is greater than the benefits, you know, to the cancer.
Diarrhoea was caused by bile salts entering the bowel after a valve was removed from her bowel.
Diarrhoea was caused by bile salts entering the bowel after a valve was removed from her bowel.
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Was very sick after chemotherapy but found out that it was caused by the way she was taking her...
Was very sick after chemotherapy but found out that it was caused by the way she was taking her...
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So I thought we'd better see a pharmacist at the hospital, who really spotted the problem right away and explained that I had been taking these morphine tablets when I felt I needed them, which is not the way to do it at all apparently. You have to take them, if it says 'every four hours' every four hours, otherwise you keep feeling sick, because the effects wear off. Then you have another one to kill the pain and it causes you to feel sick. So I really was doing it myself. But everybody worked together so that when I had the second session of chemo it was all sorted, and it is.
Was disconcerted to be told to 'be her own physician' and look for signs of the cancer returning.
Was disconcerted to be told to 'be her own physician' and look for signs of the cancer returning.
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Yes I was actually and, you know, when sort of once a fortnight then once a month and once, just gradually lengthened the periods of time, and when the consultant said to me 'you are your own physician' I found that very disconcerting and I actually rang Cancerbackup at that time because I felt completely devastated and thought 'nobody's looking after me', you know and, because you are so looked after, well I was, so well looked after, that suddenly you think you're on your own and I felt I could turn into a kind of a total hypochondriac because when somebody says 'you are responsible for yourself really and listening to your body', well you can hear your body telling you all sorts of things can't you that it isn't really, and sometimes he did used to say to me 'but Mrs xxx you can have a headache that is nothing to do with your cancer you know'. So that was a difficult period at first, getting used to listening to your own body, but now I can do that.
She recognised the symptoms that indicated her cancer had returned.
She recognised the symptoms that indicated her cancer had returned.
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Oh the same feeling of heaviness, and not inability to move your bowel, but the feeling that you need to move your bowel but the muscles aren't obeying your brain. And sometimes pain. But mostly that, that almost indescribable feeling really of, of thinking oh oh, you know, not like a pain and not having felt ill, but that was the first sign on most of the occasions, not all of them but most of them.
Praises the chemotherapy nurses - they made themselves available 24 hours a day for patients with...
Praises the chemotherapy nurses - they made themselves available 24 hours a day for patients with...
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Felt unattractive and wore a wig in bed but feels that a sex life needs to be preserved.
Felt unattractive and wore a wig in bed but feels that a sex life needs to be preserved.
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I think that's really the way it's affected it, that often you maybe find yourself perhaps with less enthusiasm than you might have, but you know there is going to come a time when you are going to feel better, but as you get older you might think, 'gosh I let this go' and so perhaps more self-consciousness about it. But mostly, largely because it's very difficult, it's been very difficult for me to think that I want to be seen outside of voluminous night-dresses or pyjamas, you know, terrible, pancake bottoms and things.