Catherine Z

Age at interview: 52
Brief Outline: Catherine Z had an experience of hypomania in her late teens and was admitted to hospital for 2 weeks and prescribed antipsychotics. After giving birth at the age of 29 she suffered from an episode of acute manic psychosis. She explains that ECT was the only treatment that worked for her on that occassion. She views ECT as a lifesaver and describes it as “pressing the reset button,” allowing you to get back to who you were before.
Background: Catherine Z is a teacher and lives with her husband. She has 2 grown-up children and describes her ethnic background as White British.

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Catherine was diagnosed with hypomania in her late teens after returning from a holiday where she had very little sleep and experienced grandiose delusions she knew were not real. After seeing a psychiatrist, she was admitted to hospital for 2 weeks and prescribed an antipsychotic. She soon recovered. 

She enjoyed a career in marketing. She became pregnant when she was 29 and had her son. During her pregnancy she felt the need to be the perfect mum. She bought books and wanted to learn as much as she could about giving birth and motherhood. Although they enquired about any mental health issues during an antenatal appointment, it had not occurred to her that her early experience of hypomania would fall into this category. After giving birth and leaving hospital she began suffering from hallucinations. She told her husband and mother that she didn’t feel right but said that she did not want to go back to hospital. Her hallucinations became extremely severe and unmanageable. She completely lost touch with reality. Her GP and a social worker visited and she was forcibly admitted to hospital. 

She was on medication for 10 days but unfortunately did not respond to the treatment and they decided to give her ECT. Her husband was asked to consent to the procedure. She explained that the health professionals reassured her husband that they were confident that she would improve with ECT and he consented to a course of ECT. Her recovery was almost immediate. Within 4 weeks of her treatment she was well enough to have home leave and was discharged with a weekly outpatient appointment. She explains that ECT was the only treatment that worked for her. She viewed ECT as a lifesaver and described it as “pressing the reset button,” allowing you to get back to who you were before. ECT only affected her short term memory, so she could not remember events close to the ECT and the ECT itself. She has been without any illness for 23 years now.  

Catherine explained that her son had a similar experience twenty years later. After a negative experience of university he became very depressed. Medication helped at first but triggered severe manic psychosis and he was admitted to hospital. During his time in hospital he was put on the highest doses of antipsychotics and mood stabilisers, which simply did not work. She and her partner felt that they constantly pushed for ECT as they were sure it would work, as it had done for her in the past. Eventually the consultant administered ECT and there was an instant improvement, although full recovery was more gradual. She felt that some health professionals still have reservations about recommending ECT to patients but that it’s important not to discourage early intervention. 

Catherine Z had found ECT had worked for her and when her son had depression she wanted him to have ECT straight away. He was given high doses of drugs that had no positive effect which she found “distressing”.

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Catherine Z had found ECT had worked for her and when her son had depression she wanted him to have ECT straight away. He was given high doses of drugs that had no positive effect which she found “distressing”.

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He then started on medication, anti-depressants that seemed to initially make him better but then prompted mania and as soon as he became manic, I, we all quickly recognised the signs because we’d obviously had a lot of experience of it. It took him a long time to be admitted to hospital but we got him there eventually. When he was admitted to the hospital he was given extremely high doses of all sorts of drugs; olanzapine, haloperidol and none of them worked. He’d been on olanzapine for 30 days it was having no effect apart from making him want to eat a horse!

His mental state was deteriorating and basically the drugs were not touching him. It was extremely distressing as parents to see him in that state. But from the second week, every time we went to see him and had meetings with the psychiatrist and the nurses we asked, “When are you going to start the ECT?” because we knew it will get him better. We’d had experience of this we understand the illness. Even the symptoms and how they were presenting were so similar to my own case.

When Catherine Z’s son had depression she was very concerned about the high doses of drugs he was given. He had ECT when the drugs did not work.

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He was admitted to the hospital at the beginning of November and towards the end of December they finally said we think we need to try ECT because nothing is working, these drugs are not touching him it’s making no difference. 

Just as an aside, the drugs that he was taking did have an impact on his liver and it took two years for his liver to be normal again. All the time he was on these drugs we kept saying “Is his heart okay? Are his kidneys okay? Is his liver okay?” And we were always reassured that yes he’s fine he’s healthy he can take it. But in my mind giving him those high doses of drugs and them having no effect was slightly barbaric, all the time knowing that there was this other treatment that they could have given him much earlier which could have got him better. We felt that we constantly had to say “When are you going to do the ECT? When are you going to do it?”

Catherine Z was having hallucinations and doesn’t have much recollection of being forced into an ambulance and pinned down. Her notes say she was violent and so ill she couldn’t be assessed.

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And one of my hallucinations was that I opened my bedroom curtains and there was a whole wedding party on the lawn and, for those who don’t understand hallucinations, the people were really, really, really there and I could hear them and I could see them, and it was really happening. And it all came to a head where I wasn't feeding my son, I’d stopped feeding him because he didn’t need feeding because we were, we sort of transcended to another state of consciousness, you know? 

So with that my family obviously needed to get me into hospital. The GP came round and a social worker came round and they basically forced me into an ambulance and I went to hospital. So when I got to hospital, I was given extremely high doses of drugs. I was in bed nurses sitting on me pinning me down in the bed and I don’t have any recollection of this but apparently I was quite violent, I was hitting and screaming and totally uncontrollable. Having subsequently seen my notes, it seems that I was so ill I couldn’t be assessed. They couldn’t actually speak to me or assess me. 

It said on my notes that I was staring, I don’t think I was staring into space, I think I was watching what was happening in my head I had the usual sort of preoccupations that you get when you’re extremely manic, well I was psychotic by then.