Harriet
Harriet had acne from around the age of 12 to 18. She tried a number of topical creams prescribed by her GP before being referred to a dermatologist. Roaccutane (isotretinoin) cleared her acne though she finds that her skin is now more sensitive.
Harriet is 21 and an undergraduate university student. She is single and lives in university accommodation. Her ethnic background is White British.
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Harriet had acne between the ages of 12 to 18, mostly affecting her face and occasionally her chest and back. She visited her GP after a painful lump developed in her neck which the GP thought might be linked to acne. She tried a number of different topical creams prescribed by her GP and was unaware at this time that seeing a dermatologist would be an option. When she was referred to a dermatologist at age 16/17, Harriet took a three month course of Roaccutane (isotretinoin) which cleared her skin significantly. However, once she had finished the course, her acne began to return and she took an additional course of Roaccutane (isotretinoin). Another factor which helped fully clear Harriet’s acne was a school expedition to a warm, dry climate.
In addition to trying medical creams, Harriet researched online for information to help control her acne. She tried different face washes and moisturisers, using the Internet to identify components in these products which might make a difference. She also tried a number of home remedies for acne and made lifestyle adjustments. This included frequently changed pillowcases and tying her hair up to keep it from touching the skin on her face. Harriet also took advice from family members such as her brothers, although information from different sources sometimes made it confusing. For example, she had read online that diet is not linked to acne but found in her own case that reducing her dairy intake helps. She described the process of identifying various factors which contributed to her acne and those which improved her skin as a kind of “detective work”.
Harriet described herself as having been quite shy and reserved at school, with her acne making her feel additionally self-conscious. Swimming was especially uncomfortable because the chlorine stung on her face but she did not feel able to ask the teacher to excuse her from P.E. classes. Harriet resumed playing sport at university but wishes she had continued at school as she thinks this would have boosted her confidence.
Harriet finds that her skin is more sensitive since finishing Roaccutane (istotretinoin) and she continues a skincare routine with soap-free face washes and fragrance-free moisturisers. She had been concerned about scarring but found that people she had meet at university did not notice it and they were often surprised to hear that she had previously had acne.
Harriet’s acne wasn’t always painful, but it could be when she used topical creams.
Harriet’s acne wasn’t always painful, but it could be when she used topical creams.
I think it does. It’s so hard to convey though, isn’t it, unless you sort of know…?
It’s when it, with the burning you feel like it’s doing something useful, cos you, you can sort of feel it almost, you can almost imagine like the acne evaporating from your skin. You’re like “Yeah”, this, and then you look in the mirror and you expect to be, you know, completely, completely clean skinned. But it does, it definitely feels like it’s working when it burns.
Harriet felt more self-conscious about spots on her chest than on her face.
Harriet felt more self-conscious about spots on her chest than on her face.
And were there any differences that you felt about the sort of facial acne versus like the sporadic bits on your back and chest?
In a way I was I think more self-conscious when it was not on my face. So it’s kind of more socially acceptable to have acne on your face rather than anywhere on your body. So I wouldn’t sort of, even now if I, I’ll occasionally get sort of a little spot here [points to chest/collar], I wouldn’t wear anything that shows it cos I feel like that has more of an implication of, you know, “She’s not clean” rather than anything else, yeah.
Okay. So would you hide that acne like with clothing or anything?
I’d cover, I’d cover up with clothing. I wouldn’t, I wouldn’t put anything on it though I don’t think, yeah.
Harriet talks about her experiences with topical treatments.
Harriet talks about her experiences with topical treatments.
Harriet read online about home remedies for acne and tried some out.
Harriet read online about home remedies for acne and tried some out.
Did you try any supplements or any sort of herbal remedy style things?
I remember, it, this was mostly when I was trying to get rid of the scarring, I remember using a lot of vitamin E oil, almond oil. I used, while I still had some acne I used, what’s it called? Tea tree oil. Which, it does that thing where it kind of, you put it on and it burns a bit so you think it’s working. And that kind of helped, but obviously it’s really strong smelling. The same with TCP, that had the sort of drying thing, but it just, the smell just stays on your face for the next two days. So I try not to use it any more.
Harriet finds that eating dairy products tends to give her more spots.
Harriet finds that eating dairy products tends to give her more spots.
[Laughs]
But, yeah, so I did, I did sort of read that you should, like dairy is, I read one, in one place that nothing you eat will affect it, but then I found that sometimes it does. So I wouldn’t eat, like if I eat eggs or cream or things like that, then it tends to, or it tended to get quite bad. So I’d avoid things like that, yeah.
Is that something you still avoid now like in sort of remission and recovery or...?
Yeah, well, I find it still has an impact. If I eat sort of a lot of dairy or anything like that, then I will tend to get more spots.
Harriet was aware of people taking photographs at events and was conscious about how her skin looked under different light (fluorescent light, daylight).
Harriet was aware of people taking photographs at events and was conscious about how her skin looked under different light (fluorescent light, daylight).
Would you ever avoid sort of events or going to certain places as a result of that sort of self-consciousness?
I don’t know if I’d go as far as avoiding things, but I def-, like events, but I’d avoid maybe certain people or people with cameras or… I was, I remember being quite conscious of sort of where I’d sit in a room or where I’d go, cos obviously certain lights make it look a lot worse. I knew that when my skin was oily fluorescent lights would make it look really bad, but if I sat next to a window with natural light it looked better. So thing, little things like that. I hadn’t even realised that I thought about those things, but it does, it takes up a lot of your brain space, yeah.
Although Harriet used to go swimming, the chlorine reacted with some of her face creams and made it painful. However, she enjoys sports generally, and has got back into them since she started university.
Although Harriet used to go swimming, the chlorine reacted with some of her face creams and made it painful. However, she enjoys sports generally, and has got back into them since she started university.
When she was using a cream with a bleaching agent Harriet had to be careful about staining her clothes and using other people’s towels.
When she was using a cream with a bleaching agent Harriet had to be careful about staining her clothes and using other people’s towels.
Clothes wasn’t too bad, cos I was always, I didn’t realise it would bleach things. And it was only when I looked, I started to use my towel, then it’s, it was like, “Oh, okay, it’s.” And then I looked into it and I found that it was sort of a bleach-based thing. And from then on I was really conscious of, so like when I’m taking a tee-shirt off, I’d like carefully lift it over my face. I remember being quite conscious of other people’s towels in, if I went to stay over at someone’s house. So after I washed my face, I’d make sure I’d do it really thoroughly, and then just like try and pat it dry as gently as possible so I wouldn’t stain anyone’s towels.
Harriet was quite conscious of her acne, particularly when she was out of the house, and felt much more comfortable being at home with her family.
Harriet was quite conscious of her acne, particularly when she was out of the house, and felt much more comfortable being at home with her family.
Yeah, that does make sense. And with it sort of taking up so much sort of brain space and energy -
Yeah.
-when you were doing other things like whether you were spending time with friends, did you still feel you were holding back something cos you were processing or feeling self-conscious about it?
Yeah, it was, yeah, even with friends. It was less so when I was sort of at their house and it was just a sleepover or something, but it was definitely still always there, that I was always quite conscious of. The only place I wasn’t conscious about it was I think when I was at home with my family. Cos they kind of knew what I was going through and would talk about it more, I felt like I could talk about it more openly. So I could complain, be like, “Oh, my skin is so dry today. I hate this medication.” And they’d be, they’d sort of, they’d be like, “Oh, okay, yeah.” And it’s just like, you don’t expect a reaction like, “Oh, Harriet, I feel so bad for you.” But it’s nice to just feel, to, to voice it and have someone just like accept it and listen. So at home was where I felt most comfortable.
Harriet recalls teachers commenting that she didn’t contribute much in lessons and thinks that acne partly contributed towards her shyness at school.
Harriet recalls teachers commenting that she didn’t contribute much in lessons and thinks that acne partly contributed towards her shyness at school.
Although Harriet’s mother paid for her isotretinoin treatment, she thinks it was quite expensive and if she had had to pay herself it would have been something she would have had to think about.
Although Harriet’s mother paid for her isotretinoin treatment, she thinks it was quite expensive and if she had had to pay herself it would have been something she would have had to think about.
Harriet read comments people had made on Boots reviews sections and Yahoo answers. She felt some forums only gave “a small fragment of a bigger picture”.
Harriet read comments people had made on Boots reviews sections and Yahoo answers. She felt some forums only gave “a small fragment of a bigger picture”.
Was there any information that you were looking for that you weren’t really able to find online in the searches?
I don’t know. It was sort of, the stuff I was missing I suppose was kind of actual people, cos online it’s all quite, I don’t know, it’s quite anonymous. And there’s people telling their stories but you don’t really know their back stories or how, like whether it’s worked long term and things like that, yeah. So I didn’t really know anyone particularly that had very bad skin or that, or knew and wanted to talk about it. So I tried, I sort of kept on, obviously it’s quite obvious when anyone looks at you, but I didn’t really talk about it in, sort of at school or with my family especially, yeah.
And so with the, like the reviews of products and like the answers that people gave, did you feel like it wasn’t enough information and not opportunities to ask?
Yeah, well, like they’re useful for sort of a little snapshot of what something’s like. But obviously you don’t really know what that person’s skin is like or what general sort of lifestyle they have or anything like that. So it is, it’s useful but it’s just, it’s only a really small fragment of a bigger picture.