Heather
Heather caught Covid early in the pandemic, and had a very slow recovery with ongoing symptoms. She felt that health professionals were dismissive of her symptoms. Heather was interviewed in December 2021.
Heather is a part-time teacher and farmer’s wife and they live with their six children on the farm in rural Northern Ireland. Ethnic background: Northern Irish.
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Heather and her husband caught Covid in March 2020 the week before schools shut and there was a national lockdown. She felt extremely ill for three weeks, but her husband had much milder symptoms and could go back to farming for a few hours after a week. Family and friends helped with groceries and her children fended for themselves. Towards the end of the three weeks Heather called the paramedics twice and went to A & E after the second paramedic visit feeling like “this could be me on the way out,” but she was discharge from A & E that day. She did start to recover after that, but her progress was very slow. By the summer of 2020 she felt ‘OK’ and went back to work at school in September. Heather normally teaches for two days a week, but she was finding it very difficult to concentrate and every week she was struggling more with her work. In October she started to experience palpitations and irregular heart rhythms and had to stop work but hadn’t connected these symptoms to having had Covid.
Heather found her cardiac symptoms very worrying, and her GP sent her to hospital for tests, but these came back negative. “It was very scary because I thought I had a heart condition and that that’s what was wrong with me, and whenever they kept saying, “Your tests are clear,” even though I was glad they were clear, part of me was going, but why... then what’s wrong, you know, if everything’s clear, what... why do I feel like this?” Her employers were not very helpful and were pushing for answers about what was wrong and when she was coming back to work, but she wasn’t able to give them any answers.
Heather thinks that the health professionals that she saw at the time “looked upon me as, kind of, premenopausal, slightly hysterical woman is the way I felt they were talking to me, but then I began to think, maybe that’s what I am [laughs].” She had to go back to the GP for a sick note every two weeks but was offered no help or advice. She asked one GP in November whether her symptoms might be Long Covid, but this was dismissed “They were very dismissive of Long Covid at that stage because they didn’t know much about it”. Her school principal was getting agitated, and she felt they thought that she was “taking time out when I shouldn’t be”. Occupational health had been calling and pushing for a return date and she though she may be able to go back in January 2021. That gave her six weeks to recover further, and she felt some relief that she was out of the two-week cycle of sick notes.
Though in January 2021 she developed more symptoms, and she was very worried about what was causing them “I was so embarrassed phoning the doctor because I felt like they would have a big, red sign going, hypochondriac lady, watch out for this lady, here she is again. But constant symptoms.” Heather was sent for an MRI due to the hissing symptom she was experiencing in her head, but this too came back clear. Abdominal pains followed and the investigations that followed also came back clear.
Since her interview, Heather is now back at work for two days a week, and is (almost) managing all she needs to do. She still suffers from aching muscles and fatigue and finds it more difficult to get over infections. She still has occasional stinging sensations in her legs, intermittent buzzing in her head, bouts of bowel trouble, and increased anxiety levels. She is not attending any clinics, and other than taking a vitamin supplement, she is not on any medication. She did get seen by a Long Covid clinic earlier this year; they gave her some leaflets on managing fatigue.
She is “not quite the person I was before contracting Covid, but I feel fairly optimistic that I will still improve. Sometimes I worry that I am too accepting/grateful for what I now feel like – so I think I still need to aim to get even better!” She feels she has come out the other end of her 'Long Covid Tunnel', is thankful to be 'out' and hopeful for the future. She feels that her family suffered because of her illness, as she hasn’t been able to be 'there' for them as a mum normally would, but thinks they probably do not really realise this – children are very adaptable.
She summarises: “Other than being slighty anxious about how I will fare when I get Covid again, I feel positive about what comes next.”
As a teacher, Heather found it difficult to explain to her employer when she would be able to return to work when she didn’t understand what was wrong herself.
As a teacher, Heather found it difficult to explain to her employer when she would be able to return to work when she didn’t understand what was wrong herself.
Oh yeah, because the heart symptoms, I can remember, not the... not the symptoms of anxiety and finding my work difficult, none of those, I just thought this is me getting older and finding September difficult; I think September for a teacher’s hard anyway, it always is like that, but I just thought, I must be getting older, this is getting harder. But it’s whenever that heart symptoms started, I just considered that a separate health issue for me, I never connected it with Covid, and it worried me because I did feel... honestly, I felt I was going drop of a heart attack, and there’s some family history of that happening, you know, so it was a bit worrying to say the least.
So school, now saying that, school were not very helpful. They were: one, what is wrong with you? Two, when are you coming back? Three, what is going on? And I couldn’t... I couldn’t understand it myself, I thought, I don’t know what’s going on, this is very bizarre. I went to the GP and they sent me to A&E for examinations, etc. etc. and everything was clear and I thought, OK; I think they looked upon me as, kind of, premenopausal, slightly hysterical woman is the way I felt they were talking to me, but then I began to think, maybe that’s what I am, [laughs]. So, you know, you, sort of, think, OK, maybe that’s just all it is and then the... so every two weeks or... I had to phone the doctor and take a sick claim and say to the doctor, “I don’t think I’m well,” and he would say, “Well, do you want another two weeks off?” and I said, “Well, I don’t know what I want, I need somebody me what I need to do,” but there was nobody to do that. So that was part of the very... that was, like, one of the worst periods of just not knowing what was wrong with me and wondering why I was feeling like that and not being able to explain to my work as to what was going on, you know?
The... the... the GP... there was one GP in particular who was very sympathetic on the line, and I actually said to him in November, “Do you think this could be Long Covid?” and he went, “No, no.” They were very dismissive of Long Covid at that stage because they didn’t know much about it, and he said, “Oh, no, you know, you were better, you were fine, and now this has happened to you,” and I said, “I know that but I...” Funnily enough I had heard via a friend that she had read a story about a lady who had recovered, been fine, gone back to school, another teacher, and then had to go off again within two weeks of going back to school and was diagnosed with Long Covid, and I told the doctor this and he went, “No, no, no, no.” So then I just was, like, then OK, it’s not that, I’ll get better, you know, surely I’ll get better in a few weeks. This... this is all on top of quite a cross, principal wondering what I was doing and was I just swinging the lathe, as it were, and taking time out when I shouldn’t be.
So yeah, so it wasn’t until the middle of December whenever occupational health phoned me regards... on behalf of school really, and he was talking to me and I said I think maybe I have Long Covid, and there was... he talked about it, he didn’t really say very much apart from record what I said, because he was working for school as it were, and he said, “Do you think you’ll be able to go back in January?” and I said, “Absolutely, I’m sure I’ll be all right,” [laugh] I was so convinced this will all go away, you know, it’ll be fine. I’m quite a positive person and I thought, no, it can’t go for much longer, you know, I’m over the heart thing now, it’ll all be grand—and it wasn’t, [laughs]. So that was where I was at in December. And then January, I had to phone school and say, “Look, I am not going to be back to at least Halloween,” oh, “or at least Easter” it’s just that gave me... whenever we’d agreed that, that gave me at least a couple of... the six weeks to just go, oh, thank goodness, that whole pressure of phoning your doctor, trying to persuade them that you were sick, feeling slightly guilty that maybe you weren’t really sick, all those psychological things that were going on you know, that that was the first, kind of, relief I got in January of feeling, I’m legitimately allowed to be off now for six weeks you know, and he put Long Covid on my form then.
Heather’s children ‘rose to the occasion’ while she was most unwell. She’s not sure how they felt emotionally.
Heather’s children ‘rose to the occasion’ while she was most unwell. She’s not sure how they felt emotionally.
But the children did. I mean, they rose to the occasion, and they managed amazingly well. But whenever I got up, three weeks later, I’d never seen such a travesty of a house in my life, the mess was unbelievable [laugh]. The disorganisation – chronic, but they survived.
And were the children anxious at all, were they worried?
I don’t know, they didn’t appear that worried. my second daughter would be quite a worrier but she would hide it very well, she would never tell you how she was feeling, she just every day would come and say, “How are you today?” and I just said, “Oh, not too bad,” because I knew they were going to be scared or worried, you know? So, I don’t think they ever... I don’t think they ever felt really worried and stressed. In fact, we’ve never had that conversation about how they felt when we were both sick; I don’t know what they felt really...